Gosh. Someone gotta teach me how to say "baked beans" in as many languages as possible. Dialects too if possible. Cycled down to the Bedok Reservoir Road there to eat dinner den see the main food centre in the area like 90% of the food stalls close. Like so weird lor, 6pm or so nia already all close. Sianz

So cycle around the area to find other place to eat. Found this kopitiam at the side of the whole area. Sat down there for awhile to think about what to eat. Den this uncle came up to me and said "Boy, you want buy water?". "Huh? Er... Teh Bing". Do I look like my engrish very powderful or what?

So i decided to eat the western food. Went to order the chicken cutlet rice. "Chicken cutlet rice, no baked beans, extra fries please". Stall Owner: "........?". Sigh. " Qi Hao. Bu Yao....er...er... baked beans!. Shu Tiao Duo. Xie Xie( Item 7, no baked beans, more fries)". Stall Owner : Yes Yes! No probrems!

Order came. 2 helpings of beans. 20 cents more.

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The rules: Bold the statements that are true to you. Italise the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the fibs alone. Then, stab 5 people to do the same test. (:

I miss somebody right now.
I don't want TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed alot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.(Fucking knife just broke can -_-)
I'm TOTALLY smart. (As if.)
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I like sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have alot of moodswings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have alot of friends.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.(That depends on who doesnt it? :] )
I practically live in trackpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do with the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have alot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.(well only 2 particular persons.. >.>)
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the 'South Park' movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I am comfortable with who i am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot whenever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I work at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I want a college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fell for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I can't whistle.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees are a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tatoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

People stabbed:
Justine
Jensen
Manda
Phoebe
Cindia

[There are some things money can't buy.]

Money makes the world go round. That's what they say. Yet its not the case in my world... Been feeling pretty down lately... What with Prelims coming around the corner, tons of Mathematics that I still have no idea how to go about solving, wasting money watching cheesy movies..

As if the cheese-factor doesn't already make me wonder why the hell I'm there, there's always that happily-ever-after ending that really takes a chomp out of me. What can I say, I'm just such a bitter and jealous person. Sue me.

So. What better way to work it all off than a huge spending spree.. Yea.. Wished that worked for me.. Its really weird actually cos nowadays, I go off to town or some other shopping mall with a fat wallet, a heavy heart that also has visions of new clothes and other thingamajigs and a burning desire to just splurge.. Yet, at the end of the day, I ALWAYS end up home, empty-handed, a still-fat wallet, an even heavier heart and a few hours of my life wasted. What the heck's that? What's wrong with me?

Feeling really like a Ha-Ha crab right now...~

[My sister(left), the co-designer for the funky jeans(right).]

Yup. This post's dedicated to my darling sister. For those who're really lost, yes, I do have a sister. She's 1 year younger than me and currently studies Apparel Design at Temasek Polytechnic. These jeans are her first major piece of work for some competition(co-designed).
Yes, I may not speak much, but I'm really proud of her cos she's really putting effort into everything, and also cos she worked really hard to get into her -dream- course of study.

Go sis! I know you'll be a great designer one day~

[The end of the road's near. What lies ahead..]

Two years of JC life is coming to an end. In just a blink of an eye. Somehow or rather, the SGC forms task invokes a sense of nostalgia. It seems as if after just a short 2 years, it's time to recollect on all the meaningful things we've done in that period of time. Yet, judging from the list of things that are actually reflected on my respective certs, it seems as if I haven done a single thing worthy of remembrance. Personally.

The impending A's loom just over the horizon. What with the continuous reminders about time left before the Prelims and subsequently the A's, one does feel a need to push the "PANIC" button and start revising. Yet, when I look ahead into my future, I don't see anything extremely bright shining at me. I always THOUGHT i wanted to involve myself somewhere in the area of Nanotechnology or the likes, yet now when I think about it, it doesn't really get me all hyped and motivated. I guess my career path will probably involve grunt work in the Armed Forces or janitor's.

How did it all come to this~

[The secrets a simple apple can derive..]

I read about this "The Apple Theory" from a forum. Apparently, the poster got into his head that his theory was effective in helping one to jump-start success onto his love life. After reading his post, couldn't help feeling that though some of the actions one might have to perform may be slightly unsound morally, his thoughts and actions really did improve his "luck" with the ladies. Anyways, here's it.. And what do you people think?
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THE APPLE THEORY

The simple apple has successfully resulted in the creation of many theorys and principles(Think Newton). This is what I have managed to derive from the concept of the apple. Firstly, it's common knowledge that apples fresh from picking have to be kept away from each other and unbruised, thus making it a considerable tough job in taking good care of each apple. This too applies to the concept of meeting women.

Have you ever felt how that particular girl you met and fell for made you so -obsessed- that you couldn't think of anything else? Well, its time to give yourself a mental slap, cos thats NOT the way to go about doing things. Thus this is where the apple theory comes in.

If you place all your apples in one basket(one girl), when any one of the apples in the entire hoard goes bad, there goes your entire basket of apples(that is, you feel as if you lost all hope when that particular relationship doesn't work out).

However, if you place your apples in many different containers(that is, meeting many women/girls instead of just one!), even if a particular container of apple goes bad, there will still be other fresh apples for you to enjoy(that is, if a particular relationship doesnt work out, it's easier for you to move on as you have many other relationships to focus on den to waste time brooding)

But before anyone misunderstands my theory, I'm NOT encouraging you to become a slimy git and go about cheating on multiple girls' feelings at a go. This is a theory for you to meet MORE people so that you have MORE choices.

So why is it effective you may ask.
1) It helps you to think of the other 53815183795893150913859013980138950130 females out there you could be meeting instead of wasting time being obsessed with 1.

2) It conveys the message to the other party that you're a successful young man with a social life and not a creepy withdrawn stalker, thus improving your chances of a successful relationship.

Therefore the gist behind this. That is, DONT get obsessed with that one girl! Go out and meet 5 other girls and perhaps you may not be so obsessive, not to mention broadening your social circle.

The Don Juan.
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Yup, so thats the theory, what do you people think? True?

[Everything requires something to go with it.]

The problem with living in Singapore...is that everything seems to go so fast. But luckily(or unluckily), people are content with life here. They dun try to overthrow the government nor stick bombs all over themselves. Surely, we dun get "Speed" or "Ocean Eleven" materialising here as well. This makes you really wish for the the occasional mad-hat that throws himself infront of a train or hits a policeman, just to liven things up.

Things become like a piece of meat, freshly cut. Surely its edible when cooked, but the taste would be of such blandness that it bores one to tears within a week. This is where the marinates, tenderisers, spices and other thingamajigs come in handy. Throw in some spices today, marinate the meat tomorrow, and perhaps some gravy the 3rd and the meat will taste delightful everyday. This applies to us. Stop being a bore. See that guy whose nose you really wanna break? I'd say go on ahead! If not how about breaking a window just for the sake of it?

Don't hesitate. Have fun~

[If only life was all about 3 buttons. And could be paused.]

Today was a pretty smooth day. Played a little football and frisbee, completed considerable work during the night study too. Yup, a considerable deviation from the mundane life that I've been leading the past few days. That is.. School, Mug, Sleep. But then again, Prelims and A's are around the corner, so can't really help but tolerate it.

On a serious note, recently had to settle some School Leaving Certificate (DAMN FUCKING TESTIMONIALS AGAIN) shit and get endorsements and stuff. And there was also some National Education talk which I didnt attend. I mean. CMON! Its THE A'levels, not some fucking -common- test. What's the big idea with all these last minute distractions and that DAMN talk? I mean, it wasn't really necessary in our future or something, nor was it some kinda A' Levels related issue, so why force it upon us? I think even some of the teachers scorn the untimely placement of such events, and I whole-heartedly agree.

Spare us the nonsense. Thx.

[Just a few more steps to the top..]

Buddies. Bed. Booze. Building. To escape from a reality, take your pick. My life's a mess, my feelings are totaled, my grades are absymal and I'm just a complete wreck. Prelims are a knocking in couple of weeks time and my mugging just doesn't seem to cut it. All that time spent studying away.. how come they don't seem to have any effect what-so-ever?

After 18 years of life, I still don't feel at any point in time that I did anything meaningful, I've been spiriting it all away. In fact, I don't feel that I count for much in anybody's life at all. Maybe its cos I've withdrawn too much into my own little cubby hole... but still..

Anyways, buddies no longer cut it. They've got their own problems, I've got mine. Bed did work, but I guess not anymore nowadays, too much brain things going on at night. Booze's not bad.. only that I hardly get drunk. Lol. Then there's the paunch....

Iono.. just a rough patch i guess..~

[And though it's just a line for you, for me it's true.. and never seem so right before.]
(Lyric from Something Stupid - The Mavericks)

They say that the 3 hardest things to say is "I Love You", "Sorry" and "Help Me". I don't really have much to say about the latter 2 as I personally have no problems doing either. No, more accurately, I never allowed myself to do anything which might make me apologise and I'd rather achieve things on my own accord, unless it would cost me an arm and a leg, then I might ask for someone else's help to donate them. I guess they really are one of the hardest things to say.

"I Love You". The very words. Will she ever know how much I really want to tell her these 3 very very precious words. As a true-blue Cancerian, these 3 words are divine to me, almost sacred in fact. I abhor those who rattle them off to their so-called partners, yet never seem to mean them. Breaking and reconciling more times than days in a year is just beyond shallowness that I can't stomach. Accomodation's the word.

Until proven wrong~

Spread the love. Give In. Chill. Enjoy.

[I tried so hard.. and got so far.. in the end.....] (Lyric from Linkin Park - In The End)

Today was the NAPFA test. Final one. Was really a disappointment for me, just barely failed for pull-ups, 2.4km run and broadjump.. (by fail i mean as in failing to get D).. Damn.. I'm just drifting now. I feel so lost. Fucking shit. Wish I can just go back and start from Sec1 all over again.

Fuck, and i forgot to eat dinner. Now my stomach's growling like mad. Fuck Fuck Fuck. This shit sucks. Today SUCKS~

[The difference a border can make.]

I hate being borderline. Looking back on the few years of my life, I realised that I've always hovered at borderline, and that has caused me to lose out on loads of things, and perhaps even more in future.

A first annoyance would be grades. Especially in countries like Singapore where test scores really matter, being borderline for a particular grade is especially irritating and horrifying. Why mark examinations based on a 100% total mark when ultimately, only the grades representing a particular range of marks are considered. Such is the agony of getting 49.4% for an examination especially if its an important one. And as my teacher always say, if you cannot pass your exam, you cannot get into university, then you cannot get a good job, then you do not have money to support yourself, and thus unable to get married cos no girl would marry you for your intelligence or your money (or more like the lack of either), then when you can't get an ideal partner, you have to settle for the "old maids" which will make life pretty horrible as you don't really have a choice(for the sake of the bloodline). Then your kids in future will also be like you, unable to pass exams, and therefore repeating your cycle of life. All in all, its your fault for dooming the entire generation because you can't pass your exam. Yep, thats what my teacher says.. which is of course, the worst case scenario.

Another annoyance(for me) is the inflexible fitness standards here. My current situation in terms of fitness really puts me within microns of being fit and being a hopeless fitness case, which really makes a difference of a couple of months of time in National Service. Wouldn't that piss you off if you're in that situation. (Shut up ladies~) Had this compulsory check-up bullsh*t a few months back and they verified that I was 1.3% over the ideal weight and therefore, putting me into the "fatty" group which probably have to go in for National Service early. Fuck. Ahh, the NAPFA too. The final round of NAPFA's tomorrow and I'm not really confident of making it. Pull-ups, Broad Jump and 2.4km Run are my previous failures and my status for all of them are 4 for pull-ups (minimum 5), 21xcm for jump(minimum 223), 13.00 for run(minimum 12.40). Argh~ Fuck borderlines.

Give me gradients anytime~

[First you see the horde. Then you see the kiasu-ism.]

I withnessed the ugly side of Singaporeans today. Indeed. Went to catch the last day of the 2006 Fireworks Festival by Team France at Esplanade today. Was there at approximately 5.30pm and already the number of people thronging the riverside and along the highway were pretty shocking. Tried to find a good spot to catch the fireworks but there was simply too many tripod stands around. What the hell's with people who set up their stand and completely obstruct the seats while seating a distance away and obstructing other seats. Damn tards.

Was looking for seats right up to 7.30pm before finally settling on a rocky area somewhere along the river. By then, the throng had been reinforced to mob-size. There were also loads of people seating infront, behind and along our seating ground to the point that the human traffic completely stopped moving at one point. It was 8.15pm and by then, the crowd had became a horde. Tempers were raising and so were voices. It was a really tense situation down there. People started jeering and cursing and there was hints of a riot even. When the display finally started, it was basically a ~40cm diameter of breathing space for every person.
The above photo was taken when 2 morons jumped onto the electrical box thingaling to get a better view, obstructing the views of a few hundred pissed people. Yep, such friendliness eh?
And dun even get me started about the situation when the display ended. A complete nuthouse if you ask me.

On another note. I was counting the presents recieved for my birthday about a month or so ago and found out that i recieved the grand total of 1 present(s). Yep, that's inclusive of family. I'm so loved huh? Anyways, the only present was from Esther. Therefore, I declare Esther to be my bestest fren from now on. Lol~ I'm such a materialistic person...

[ A moment of brillance. An eternity of darkness. ]

Many things in life, we take for granted. A window of opportunity arrives, we let it slip by cos we hesitate, worry, brood and wonder about all the nitty gritty 101 other things which doesn't really matter. And what next? Think you can wait for another? Fat chance. Past the hour, the prospect's black. Too late, its gone, it won't come back. Haha. Familar phrase? Thats from the Mermaid Song in Harry Potter and The Goblet Of Fire. Yep, so remember folks, treasure everything u have, and dun let the opportunities slip by.

Haha. I'm such a fraud. Talking all these philosophies, yet i don't do any of this shit. Yes! Thats right, I don't practice what i preach. Sue me. Whatever, don't be like me, I let countless opportunities slip by... and deeply regret it. And probably miss a couple more in the future to come.

Whoosh~ There goes another.. I could really get used to this man.. Haha~

Okie, I'm such an angry person.

coools frabaaa......

Ok. Screw that, i feel retarded.

Yep, I'm pissed. You bet I am. Too much stuff happening right now that just cranking up my temper.

First off. There's that particular group of individuals who thinks they can flare up anytime at anyone and blame it all on PMS. Damn u people, it ain't anyone's fucking fault that you gotta lose a few mLs of blood every month for the sake of development, so dun lose your temper and be a complete asshole to everyone within a 5metre radius and blame it on PMS later. Nobody did shit to you. Ooooh yes, dun go pretending you don't do shit like that. You're all guility.

And what's the hell with people demanding accounts and extensions? I've been perfectly civil in asking and you people keep giving me shit excuses. Getting railed at by the bookshop uncle definitely wasn't part of my plan, and YES, thats the last straw, dun expect me to be civil when you don't return it. Like, what the hell does anyone want accounts logs for, do you think me or the bookshop would cheat you people of your pittance of an amount? This is a fucking class fund, not some freaking government fund. Oh, if you want your accounts by the way, you can jolly well get them yourself from the bookshop. I got enough on my mind without having to worry bout YOUR logs. Then there's those who never seems to have money. Dudes, this is Singapore! Are you some fucking pauper or what? And whats that I hear about people treating steads to food and drink. You got the cash to pamper your stead but none to pay for your education? Don't pretend to be some rich kid pampering your steads and all if you can't settle your fucking debts.

And to that fucktard who tried to steal my bicycle. You can jolly well burn in hell. You fucker. Grow a fucking spine and get a job instead of being a bane to the society.

Okay, I'm done. And don't any of you get on my case about your pitiful lives. I don't need to hear about it and I don't fucking care. So save up your comments and go home to mommy or whatever you people do.

...fuck.. this sucks...

[So much differences... yet a common root..]

Today's the -eve- of National Day, so the whole of SRJC was down at East Coast Park to celebrate Singapore's 41st birthday by building Singapore's Largest Sandcastle. Woke up pretty early at 5.30am and couldn't go back to sleep for the remaining 30 minutes on the alarm, so I decided to set off earlier than usual. Was cycling to East Coast Park and I wasn't sure about the exact place, not to mention that the trip there took approximately 45 minutes.

The daily bustle came with the sun and pretty soon, we were all building sandcastles. Oh wait, more like sand-walls, since, to quote the instructor "we are focusing on the length, not the design". So we were encouraged to extend the lengths of the walls and not bother about the towers and forts and what-nots. And they kept asking us to hurry up. Sheesh, it was supposed to be a FUN activity, not a freaking timed assignment!

Ended the celebrations with songs, sore muscles, scratched hands and a super-duper long sand wall. But the whole day was pretty fun as a whole as we could really bond and have fun co-operating. Disgruntled as we students may seem of the school especially regarding such events, I feel that we all bond the best during such events. Haha~ Hung out with the guys at Parkway Parade for lunch and pool after that and ran into Lum too. He looks exactly the same as ever can? No change at all.

Yea. Did tons of cycling today. Really really really tired. Gonna just collaspe on the bed soon.
~

...she puts a smile on my face...

[ When everything else turns dark... The bright light will shine...]

This week's just beginning and its already almost ended, for school that is. Tuesday(thats tomorrow!!) a school event day with the National Day celebrations and its gonna be a sandcastle building day at East Coast Park and Wednesday and Thursday are holidays.. Public and School respectively. Friday's SRJC's I-Learn Day which is to promote IT learning and all that, which honestly sounds like bullsh*t to me. Anyways, well its supposed to be a "holiday", but due to some screw-up in the Physics Department, gotta go back to school for 1 hour to re-do SPA, which is a nightmare all over again. Really can't imagine if they told us we had to re-do Project Work!

Long day in school today, and I think I'm screwing up my studies.. Yea I'm studying, but somehow i don't feel all that optimistic about the Prelims and the subsequent A's. Wonder if I already doomed to do badly for the exams... On a gloomier note, had a "revision" for NAPFA 5 stations today and again.. not really confident in passing NAPFA. Sigh~ that means a whole couple of months early in NS slogging my guts out when I could be working to earn $$, pursuing my hobbies, pursuing her and getting my QDL. Gosh, everything's so screwed up.

Proably gonna sleep soon. Thats the only way to just forget everything and start the next day afresh. And i gotta be up early to cycle to ECP. Then do some dumb run. Then build sandcastle. Gosh. My bones are aching already.

...why did she leave so early...

[Blooms of such brillant whiteness induce such feelings of peace and purity.. Yet represent the dead as well..]

Had a pretty tiring day today. Woke up at 10am(AGAIN!) and wasted time on the computer blogging, reading blogs and chatting on MSN. [Yup, no work done again] Uploaded somemore photos into my DeviantArt gallery as well. Was supposed to meet Bantan at 2pm for badminton, so I had some time to spare.

Left the house at 12pm and cycled to Marine Parade Community Centre via the Siglap Park Connector at Kebangan. Took me about 1hour to get there cos I kept stopping to take photos and quenching my thirst :P My.. it was such a hot day indeed. Wanted to book the court only to find out that they are under renovation until 12/08/06. Sigh~ No badminton I guess.

Met up with Bantan and shot pool for awhile. Grabbed a bite to eat after pool and hung about for awhile, leaving Marine Parade about 5pm. Cycled back again via the Siglap Park Connector and dropped by a bicycle shop to adjust the seat. Got a real fright back there cos I accidently scratched myself with a rusty screw!! (Praise the person who invented vaccinations... and the one who made them compulsory in Singapore!)

Now I'm back here blogging again about the "wonderful" Sunday and boring the shit out of all you people reading this. And I haven studied a single bit all weekend! Now I'm so looking forward to the next week ahead to redeem myself. Sigh~

...and i'm wondering how her weekend went...

YOUR TEN FAVOURITES
favourite colors: white, black, silver
favourite food: fish fillet
favourite songs: Trance, Indie, Rock, Pop
favourtie movies: Comedy, Teenage Romance, Racecars
favourite sports: Cycling, Bball, Futbol, Tennis, Running
favourite season: Autumn
favourite ice-cream flavours: peppermint, chocolate, fruit flavours
favourite countries: Singapore. Sentosa. XD
favourite things: my bicycle, my camera, my computer


YOUR NINE CURRENTS
current mood: worried shitless
current clothes: FBT sports bermudas and FBT jersey
current desktop: A particular spacescape WP from deviantart.com
current toe nails: i'm wearing socks -_-
current time: 6.25pm
current annoyance: myself. homework.
current thoughts: f**k should i see a doctor bout that minor scratch from the rusty screw?
current songs: Because I Am A Girl - Kiss
current chatter: Phoebe


YOUR 8 FIRST
first Girlfriend: yet to have a first.
first Boyfriend: first boy(space)friend would be some kindergarten dude called Sebastian(which I have no idea of his life/death)
first crush: Cindy
first movie: Star Wars Episode 4,5,6
first piercing: if u include accidental.. then it will be tt time in P3 when i stepped on a nail.
first lie: To my teacher for not handing up my homework
first music: Happy Birthday To You!
first toy: A whale wearing a blue cap.
first cry: 22nd July 1988


YOUR 6 LAST
last drink: HL Milk
last car ride: Comfort Cab
last crush: ******(cant say HERE la! >.<)
last movie seen: American Pie 4
last phone call: to my mom about my scratch
last cd played: Medal Of Honour : Pacific Assault

4 THINGS YOU HAVE DONE TODAY: Cycled alot, played pool, took photos, ate Bak Chor Mee.

3 THINGS YOU HEAR RIGHT NOW: "Hate me for all the things I didnt do for you", some plastic bag rustling noises, some program on TV

2 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT: Oxygen! and water!

1 THING I DO WHEN IM BORED: Think of her.

WHO I WANT TO DO THIS: Anyone who reads this.

[Is there a storm brewing? Or is it leaving?]

There are some things in the universe which are not as straightfoward as they appear to be. Well, actually there's only 3 which I can think of on hand, which are black holes, mirages and life. And i seriously doubt that the average person among us have regular experiences with the former 2 while probably everyone goes through the entire cycle of the latter.

Every event in our life is therefore a fork in the path which determines how our future lives will be led. So by the time we are at the ripe old age of 60, we'd probably have past numberous detours and forks. However, that nice, paved, downhill path which most of us strives to walk upon might end at the cave of a 3-headed hydra where we'll meet our demise while that crooked, uneven, uphill path which everyone prefers to avoid might eventually lead to a dear little cottage with a lush garden, a loyal puppy dog and a nice rocking chair next to the fireplace.

Therefore, my point here is that every person should not take everything in life too seriously. Of course, I do not mean that the person becomes a bane to society by indulging in the high life at the expense of other peoples' life. One should strike a balance between enjoying life and working it. And thats how one should lead life in my opinion.

Yep, so thats my outlook upon life which sadly, doesn't seem to agree with the people around me. Everyone always seems to be so anxious about this or that thing which they haven't completed, yet here I am all laid back and marvelling at the backs of the people ahead of me.

(I would prefer to just lie down and watch the clouds passing by all day long if I had the choice.)

[If only feelings of such blueness were as brillant as this wonderful morning sky..]

Ok, so I've been watching too much TV lately, especially those TV drama serials like Zero Degree on Mediacorp, TVB ones like Armed Reaction III (I,II,IV,V) and even the cheesy ones on Sundays. And ya know, watching too much of these can really get to you especially when the plot always end up with a too-good-to-be-true relationship blossoming between the main characters. Sometimes, I really wonder whether saying "I Love You" is really as easy as those people on the screen make it seem like. If so, why am I finding it the hardest words to say to the one i really love. Hell, its even harder than saying "I'm gay!" out loud in public..i think.

Honestly, I really do feel sad at times...especially when I see her. And the worst thing is for awhile back then, she actually noticed me around(and probably still do), but here I'm still looking for the courage to go up to her for a chat. Yup.. I guess I'm just that Average Friendly Chump.. AFC.. destined to just "be friends" with all the ladies. Still.. No harm living in my own world with my own rules.. Yup, just me and me alone..

Yes, I'm referring to that joke of a program(Yes, you know which one!) which allows us to "see" who stays in our block(and i think the new name's more adequat). Anyways, I started using it after receiving the 23435892798645th invitation from someone-out-there to join their "community". So okay, i joined. Surfed about for abit. Posted a message on the "block" board saying "hi." and... just started decomposing.

Well, its good to know that those using the program on my block are decomposers as well looking at the previous post on the "block" board(3 1/2 months by the way.). Ok, so I didn't really toss the thing out of the window just yet. Tried the photo upload feature, profile features and read some of the topics in the "Coffeeshop"(which is basically a -cool- name for ''forum''), which were horribly outdated back to as far as 2 months.

Well, that was my first time logging into it and probably my last. Or so i thought. Just got re-acquainted with it through a friend and I figured might as well give it a second chance... so there I was trying to log-in.

Okay, finally got in after trying 5 IDs(hey I couldn't remember my account, dun blame me!) and saw, to my surprise, a MESSAGE. And its dated 3 months ago. LOL. That poor bastard might not even be alive already! I wrote a reply and clicked "send".. Just in case.

Lets keep our fingers crossed for now shall we?

Its a spoof of James Blunt's "You're Beautiful"

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He's such an idiot
He's such a fool
His heart is longing
For his special girl
He thinks of her almost all the time
He wishes she were there
But thats all that, he ever does
Cause he aint got a plan

He's pitiful, so pitiful
He's such a fool, its true.
He sees her face
Almost everyday
But he just can't tell the truth
That he's so in love with her

He was so mesmerized
When she passed him by
He was so struck that he was,
Looking dumb,
But that idiiot doesn't open his mouth
But he so wishes that he can see her again.

He's pitiful, so pitifulHe's such a fool, its true.
He sees her face
Almost everyday
But he just can't tell the truth
That he's so in love with her

La-la-la-la, La-la-la-la, La-la-la-la, Laaah

He's pitiful, so pitiful
He's such a fool, its true.
There must be some way, to shake off his daze
Its really time that he should speak to her.

Or he must accept the truth
That he aint fit for her.

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Yup. Thats it.